I'm pretty annoyed right now. It's like all of my friends are drifting away from me (the whopping like, 3 that I have) and... ugh. I don't know. I guess it's partially my fault. I see it start to happen and I just say fuck it, if it's going to happen then it's going to happen.

I mean this has only happened to me about... oh, let's see, 4 times. I've gotten to where I'm just like well god damnit, here we go again.

This happens, I know. It's a part of life. People drift apart and meet new people. However, I'm faced with this problem. You see, for most people, as they lose friends they're gaining new ones as well. I'm just losing them. Pretty soon I'll have none left. Honestly. You know who I talk to AT LEAST once a week no matter what?

It used to be CJ, Lorrie, Heidi, Chris, Haileigh... now it's just Chris. And he's my boyfriend, so that's a given.

I really think that by the end of this year he may be the only friend I have left. Let's hope he never leaves me, eh?

Oh my god shut the fuck up about the election already jfc. Yeah, Obama won, yay, woohoo, wonderful. That's that. Enough. The end. I mean, really.

You guys can go and celebrate and share your false hope of "change" with one another. Have fun with it. I'm going to go back to not giving a damn about what happens to America.


And before anyone even THINKS about it:

No, for the love of all that is fucking holy, I am not a racist. Jfc I don't get why everyone who dislikes Obama is OMGGZZZ RACIST!!!1!!1111!!1!!!!

Get the fuck over it. Ugh.

I mean shit. A dummy of Obama gets hung from a tree at UK's campus. OMGGGGG RACIST WE'RE GOING TO FIND THEM AND STOP THE RACISM.

A dummy of Palin gets hung from someone's house and McCaine is being engulfed in flames on the roof and... it's whatever. No big deal. Just people showing their political views.

I MEAN WTF?

Fuck politics. For real.

And on top of all of this I have a stupid history test tomorrow that I've been studying for since 9 tonight. I took a break about 20 minutes ago because I was afraid my head was going to explode. I guess I'm going to go back to studying.

But on the good side of things Lily was born tonight =) I'm going to see her tomorrow, I'm excited.

I only lost .2 pounds today. It's disappointing but I can't say I didn't see it coming. I was totally apathetic last week when it came to eating right and I guess this is what I get. I'll do better this week. I'll make up for it. I'm so close to losing my 10 % (which is 23 pounds) and ugh. I wish I could just go to sleep and wake up skinny. That would be nice. I've got a way to go though. But as long as I stick with it I should be where I want to be this time next year, which is nice to think about.

Okay, enough about my diet. I have a history test on Wednesday that I'm not studying for. I haven't read any of the chapters that the test is over, which is probably going to be a problem, but I'm not worrying about it right now. That's what tomorrow night is for. <3 procrastination.

In other news, Ashley is pretty much going to pop any day now. I'm starting to get excited. I love babies and I know that once she has Lily I'm going to see her all the time because Lorrie is always going to have her over at her house. I just hope that she's one of those really chill babies like Nik is. I swear I've never heard him make a sound except for when he's naked. But yeah, babies are cute and I love them... until they start screaming. And don't stop. Then I just want to stab myself in the ears.

This whole being jobless thing is really nice. I've still got another paycheck (a shitty one, but a paycheck none the less) coming this week. It'll be my last though... I don't know. It's kind of weird but I almost miss the dry cleaner. I worked there so long it was practically my second home. But I just hated it so damn much... I'm glad I got out. Finally. I'm thinking that I'm going to take a few weeks and just chill out and enjoy life for a little while. Then I'll start looking. Lorrie was supposed to hook me up with a job taking pictures but you know, shit like that never really works out for me. I would love to have a job in photography. Maybe I'll make a portfolio and just drive around from place to place asking if they're hiring. It would be worth a shot I suppose.

Well, I think I'm done ranting. I need to go for a walk.